Leo committed suicide

after sahur i prayed.when i switch off the light,i was curious if my fish, Leo eats his food or not.but when i switch my phone to torch mode to see him,his nowhere to be found. i couldnt believe it so i switch on the light.but i was now positively sure he was not in his container.so i looked around and look for him..and found him in my doss plastic containing shoe box which contains my awesome shoe!

i was frightened so i stood there staring at him.3-5 mins later he moved!i took a bottle of mineral water and pour the water into the plastic bag.even though i knew my box will get wet and worst my shoes!but Leo is a living thing.his life is worth saving than my non living shoes,i knew that..

its actually hard to handle Leo that time..long story short,he is dead.it was partly my fault for not knowing he didnt like the condition in his container.but it was partly his too.i treat him like a human.well,almost.. even if he doesnt like his container deosnt mean he can just jump out. i was going to buy him a new aquarium instead of letting him live in a container.if u ask me,its not that bad for him to live in the container..but maybe its too empty.

from now onwards i will never ever take care another fish..its enough one dies..i'm sorry Leo..



in the memories- LEO

i was bullied when i was 7 to 8 years old

today,i suddenly remember my tragic memories other than facing an icky lizard!when i was 8 years old theres a girl who used to bully me at school.i told my mom about it but my mum told me to report it to the teacher.i geuss she doesnt now how painful i was bullied.so i quit telling my mum about the bullier.

the bullier doesnt have any friends well, loyal friends..but i do!we always play together,eat together,laugh out loud together and...got bullied together too!so it wasnt that bad.is that what u think? tell me,have u ever been threaten that u must not be friends with the only friend u tolerate?i have.

hey i wasnt born with fearlessness of people like her.OK!i admit i was a chicken back then.well, compared to the person who i am right now,of course.that wasnt all.lets just fast forward it to the very tragic part of my childhood.

Fast forward please.. one day..she make me cry which maybe i get too sad about it that i couldnt remember what it was about..then she went to see my neighbour (which she thought i the girl was my sister) she went to her and make her suffer too..

after that i came and tattada.. i was kick at my back.yeah!thats what i got for being all soft and weak!when i think about it.. it was the right momment to get up on my knees and rebell against her!but what happen is i didnt get up..i didnt man up like i am now.all i did was cry.

tapi itulah yg telah ditakdirkan oleh Allah dan telah tertulis di luh mahfuz.aku redha.. kini aku lebih memahami kenapa perkara ini berlaku kepada aku.

1.at the end of the school month,my brave friend stop going to that school.among all of my friends and i , she was the bravest.that day i realise if i didnt stand up for myself and stop being sad and all everyone will soon step on me.the feeling was like coming into me, as if a power had taken control of me

2.without this memory i couldnt beable to support others who has the same sad pastime.

remember everyone,i was bullied and i stand up for myself even if its too late to use it on her. but the point is i became a brave person!
what is sad is i couldnt remember many happy memories with my friends.its probably because of i was traumatize by my bad memories.

its unfortunate.so dont ever try to bully people!